Dear Cancer,

Dear Cancer,

I hate everything about you!  I hate that you have come into my body and turned my life upside down. I hate that you made my mother cry. I hate that you have placed worry, doubt and fear into my children’s eyes and heart. I hate that you have made my husband think of life with out me. I hate that you have made me cry countless nights, lose sleep, and stress over what you have caused. No one asked you to come here, no one ever would. You are complicated, stubborn and hateful. A modern day home wrecker.

I hate everything about you!

And while you try to destroy me and my family, I will not let you. I will destroy you first! I love how close you have brought me to trust in God. I love how you have strengthened my friendships far and near. I love how close you have brought me and my husband. I love how you have made me see how fragile life can be, and I will never take a minute for granted again. I love how you have made me look deep inside my soul to bring out the best in me.  You can take my energy and my hair, but you will never take my spirit, heart or fight. I love how you have made my mind stronger than it was before. For in my mind, I have already started kicking your ass. Don’t worry, you have one more week to live inside me, and then the real fight begins. You will not destroy me first, I promise you that.

Even with the good things you have brought, I still hate everything about you!

See you in the chemo pod,

Rachel